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Dear Thi,

You could never guess the cruelty that you'll face in the next 6 years. But don't worry because you'll survive it all 'cause I'm still here, aren't I?

At the tender age of 14, you think the worst thing is not getting your feelings return by your crush. But you're so far from the truth 'cause that's just the tip of the iceberg. For the first time in school, you became an outcast. You don't care how your hair look or the fact that you would wear the same sweater for a whole week. You started to notice things you've never noticed before. How people treated you like you have no feelings. How the friends you had back in middle school are too cool for you now. How loneliness really feels even though you're constantly surrounded by people. Then sophomore year rolls around and you had to transfer to another school. It's not hard making friends but you still felt left out. You missed your good friend from your old school terribly, you did poorly in school, was mentally abused at home and so you developed depression, OCD, and an overactive bladder. You called hotlines 'cause you had no one to talk to but even there, you couldn't escape racism. You weren't allowed to cry or vent your feelings. You were made fun of for having depression and so everyday, you thought of suicide but this is just the beginning. Junior year came and you had to transfer again because they didn't want you to messed with their school's academic reputation. Again, you didn't have trouble making friends but something embarrassing happened and you were tortured by your classmates for the whole year because of it. You often hid in the library during lunch because you couldn't deal with it. You couldn't escape the pain no matter where you went and crying in your sleep didn't help. You would walk through the school hallway like a mindless drone and when you see "him" you just want to die. He hurt you so, so much yet you couldn't even cuss him out. "It's your fault", they would say and you believe them. You believe them when they were wrong. Senior year starts and you're back at the school of your freshman year. You're not the same person anymore. Even though freshman year was hard, you had a bit of self confidence but you came back empty handed. Now, the reality of this world started to sink in. Not only were the kids cruel to you, the teachers were too. You couldn't do one damn thing about that though. You hid in the library during lunch again. You didn't want to answer to the world. And you didn't have to 'cause the world owes you nothing. You graduated with no cap and gown, no prom pics, no good memory of what high school is about but you made it. You survived high school. You survived it and you were proud of yourself but that's not the end. You spent the next year out of high school at home on the Internet all day, feeling worthless like how you usually feel. Then you started college and a new world started to unfold before your clouded eyes like a revelation. You then realized that those embarrassed, painful memories are nothing to you now. Those years during which you wanted to throw yourself off a cliff are just child's play. You're an individual who is strong enough to survive, wise enough to not let the past dictates your future, prideful enough to not retaliate, and kind enough to know that you're a human that deserves love and respect.

So dear Thi, I hope you don't hate me for not looking out for you, for getting you in trouble and for putting you through unbearable pain. Because in the end, you're not the bully nor the racist. You're not the immature teacher nor that jerk who hurt you so much. And you're  definitely not those abusers who have tormented you for years. You're a strong woman and you're going to make it no matter what path you'll choose. A beautiful tea cup had to go through all kinds of torture before it becomes a beautiful tea cup. You just don't know that right now, at the tender age of 14.
Here's my entry for the Dear Teen Me Contest. [link]
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Starija Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2012  Student Writer
there were a few minor errors that aren't worth mentioning, but overall i enjoyed reading this letter. it felt like a story that's both inspirational and needed. you'll definitely motivate/touch readers with this.
the title with the teacup was what made me click this and read it. lol (since i love tea so much~ 8D)

i wish you luck in the contest!
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godasleep Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2013  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
I only had 1 day to write and edit this letter hence the errors. :( I wanted to edit it but then it'll be unfair to the other contestants so I just kept the letter the way it is. I'm glad you enjoy it. :D I see. lol.
Thank you so much. :glomp:
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EvelynTaliette Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2012  Student Writer
I have to say thank you, honestly. Why? I'm going through the same thing, the same thing as you did. Two more years and I'm gone, though I have no idea what to do next, how I can just leave all that baggage behind and start out.
But thank you for posting this, makes me feel less alone
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godasleep Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2012  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
I hate to know that someone else had also endured those same excrutianting pains. But I'm happy to know that through writing this, I was able to make you feel less alone. :hug: High school is this huge deal right now but two years from now, it's just a chapter in your novel. You have so much to write about in the present and in the future. My advice for you right now is to stay focus and have at least one person to support you mentally and emotionally. Remind yourself why you're in school. Is it because you don't have any other choice or is it because you want to make good grades so that you'll have a high chance of getting scholarships and getting in a good college? College isn't for everyone though. I'm sure you've heard of the nightmare of student loans debts here in the U.S. You have to figure out what you want and focus on that. For an example, I'm terrified of making speeches in front of my classmates but I was able to pull through because I kept reminding myself that I have to pass that class. When you get out of high school and you still find that you can't let go of all that baggage, think of me and how I haven't give up. :hug: If you need someone to talk to, you can note me anytime. I don't have all the answers but through my experiences, I can help you as best as I can. :cuddle:
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EvelynTaliette Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2012  Student Writer
Thanks so much, you have no idea how much this means to me!
The hardest thing of all, I've found, is remembering that you're not a terrible person, that you don't deserve it, that you were just singled out for whatever odd reason. I have to stay to get to college (no one in the history of my family has ever completed it) so for now I'll just keep going.
Thank you again for the advice
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godasleep Featured By Owner Dec 25, 2012  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
:aww: You're welcome. :hug:
I agree, that is the hardest thing because these horrible experiences made us feel worthless. Whether other people made us feel worthless or we became our own worst critic, the damage that we done is extremely hard to repair. We have to put all of that behind us and start anew. I see. I wish you all the best!!! You're very welcome. Remember, I'm always here if you need to talk. I'm in Texas right now and the Internet isn't so great here so I can't reply as often as I usually could. I'll be back in Missouri in a few days though. I hope you're enjoying the Holidays. :hug:
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LadyData Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
It's wonderful how you related to yourself as the tea cup at the end of the story/letter/poem but I thought it was kind of repetitive in the end because you mentioned, "beautiful tea cup" two times in the same sentence just not to make the sentence sound choppy.

I thought you should of mentioned the tea cup analogy in the beginning of the poem such as mentioning how the tea cup was made. Describe it's physical appearance and texture. Then after that you can try to relate your experiences in the letter and compare it to the tea pot.

Other than that I thought it was a really sad and heart-touching story :happycry: :clap:
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godasleep Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Thanks for the critique. :hug: I'll be sure to pay more attention to that in my future writings.

Great suggestions. I found out about this contest late so I had only one day to write it. :( I didn't know until after the contest's deadline that you're into literature or else I would have told you about this contest.

Thank you so much. :glomp:
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LadyData Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
That's ok after all we barely met :hug: As much as I love writing poems I hardly have the time to sit down and think of writing some fun and relatable poems let alone draw my favorite characters from Star Trek:The Next Generation,Star Trek:The Original Series, Death Note, Disney, Pokemon, Code Geass, Full Metal Alchemist, and Harry Potter.

I'll be honest some of my poems in my gallery are dark and depressing despite that it's relatable. I few lyrics that are more cheery and romantic =D
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godasleep Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Yeah, we've only started talking to each other recently. :hug: I'm quite busy as well. I would love to have more time for making art and writing poems. :) I love Death Note, Fullmetal Alchemist and Pokemon too. :D Who are you a fan of? L or Light? For me, it's Light. I was rooting for him from the beginning even though he's on the evil side. I feel sorry for him because he started out having good intentions but he was led astray by power. Still, his character is interesting and relatable.

That's okay. :) Not all poems have to be happy and full of joy. I usually write my poems based on bad experiences. But then again, I don't have much good experiences in my life. Cool, I love varieties in poems. :)
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