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I haven't updated my journal in a long time. I still need to reevaluate my life. Yes, I've change for the better but I still have to fix the mess I'm bathing in.

I'm no longer angry at my ex-friends. I'm actually surprise at how fast I was able to moved on. They're insignificant to me now so whether they're extremely successful or still down in the dumps, I could care less either way. 

The other week, I went out and felt the warmth that exerts from genuine and kind people. I was reminded that the world can be hopeful if I choose to look at the right places. :) Occasionally, I would come across rude people in public places but that's a given. Every rose has its thorns after all. 

I've decide since the beginning of this month that I will not waste anymore time. So far so good. :D Time won't stop moving just because we're suffering. 

Yes, life is still unfair 'cause I always want what I can't have but that's just human nature. Life will always be unfair. I gotta make the best of what I have. I gotta write my own story. I have to grasp my destiny. I can't stay still any longer. Pain can only temporarily stop me from doing what needs to be done. 

P.S. See you all when I come back from Florida!!!! :iconcarameldansenplz: 
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I've been having trouble sleeping because of the terrible stomach pain. It's been going on for a little more than a week now.  It's even a challenge to do basic activities. I know I should stop being naive and face reality already.

It's tiring to see this quote come up again and again: "I was sad because I had no shoes, until I met a man who had no feet."-Chinese Proverb Just because it's not the Holocaust, doesn't mean the pain is any less significant. If we live by the above quote then why mourn over Sept 11? Hurricane Katrina? The latest tsunami in Japan? The earthquake in Haiti? And the elementary school shooting in Connecticut?  Millions of  people died in the Vietnam War and the Iraq War yet do they care? Not to mentioned those who are still suffering today.

Of course you'll demean my struggles because you're lucky, more lucky than I'll ever be. And why expect something from someone when you can't even do that very same thing yourself?  Well, at least through this, I'm happy that I finally know who truly understands me.

Today, as I listen to Heaven by Ayumi Hamasaki, I thought of Weston. (He died from cancer.) I missed you so much. If you were still here, you'll tell me all the right words. :tears:

There are more than 7 billion people on earth yet I managed to come across some of the most despicable and hypocritical people ever existed. I mean, what's the point of writing my birthday down when you don't even talk to me anymore? You only care about your happiness while hypocritically dedicating your life to the brotherly love that you never gave a damn about.  And telling me you love me yet removing me  from your life without any hesitation while being the offender is just plain disgusting. Those are only the surface of my pain though. But my eyes have finally opened.  "Those who are close to you are the ones who hurt you the most." And that's why I'm guarding my heart now. No one can fool me anymore.

Why do people pass opinions and beliefs off as facts?
This is a fact: Britney Spears is a female.
This is not a fact: "I'm sure there is an after life."
More than anything in this world, I hate being lied to.

My New Year's Resolutions for 2013
1. Gain weight
2. Do one productive thing each day
3. Learn a third language
4. Be more Green
5. Save money
6. Don't put up with anything anymore

P.S. If you know anything about me then you know that when those who I care about are in pain, it hurts me much, much, much more than if I was the one suffering. So why judge what you don't even know? I'm so sick of this pattern.

P.P.S. I'm deactivating my Facebook account tonight. I needed a break from all the lies. Too bad I can't deactivate my DA account.

P.P.P.S. :iconmalphigus:, you're the only one who I can trust. :hug:
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:bulletred:RULES:
1. You must post the rules.
2. Each person must post 5 things about themselves in their journal.
3. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post, and create eleven new questions for the people you tag to answer.
4. You have to choose 10 people to tag and post their icons on your journal.
5. Go to their page and tell them you have tagged them.
6. No tag backs.
7. No stuff in the tagging section about "you're tagged if you're reading this". You legitimately have to tag 10 people.

:bulletblue:5 Things about me!
1. I hate dishonesty especially coming from someone who claims to be my friend.
2. I can't be friends with anyone who doesn't respect my faith.
3. I hate hypocrisy. I think, "It's better to be hated for who you are than to be liked for who you're not."
4. I love food. :hungry:
5. I love Jesus.

:bulletgreen:The following 11 questions are made by :iconmalphigus: that I have to answer:

1. How tall are you?
4'11"

2. What's your favorite music?
I love all kinds of music but I won't listen to anything with nasty or inappropriate lyrics.

3. Do you like to play pokemon? If yes, what version do you play?
I love Pokemon but I don't play the game. I'm more into watching the show.

4. What's your favorite emoticon and why?
:eager:  It's so cute.

5. The country you live in now?
U.S.A.

6. If a tree falls in a forest and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?
Yeah, of course. It's just that no one is around to hear it.

7. If I give you 1 million dollars, but you'll have to eat a live cockroach, will you do it?
NOOOOOOO! One time, there was a huge cockroach crawling around in my room. I tried killing it a few times but I couldn't. I had to stay up all night because I was afraid it might crawl on my face or something. Maybe for 100 million, I might think about it. I need money for freedom and to help others, not so that I can buy useless things to flaunt my wealth.

8. Do you like to pick your nose?
No. :laughing:

9. Tell me 1 thing that makes you proud of yourself.
I'm proud of the fact that in this cruel world, I still haven't fully lost myself.

10. Do you like it when people called you "hun" or "dear" or "sweetie" or something like those?
No but I do like to call people those things.

11. If you're going to die tomorrow, what would you do for your last 24 hours?
I would tell everyone I know that I love them, give away all my possessions, do the things that I haven't yet accomplish, I eat my favorite food, listen to my favorite songs, read my favorite books, watch my favorite movies, ask God and others for forgiveness, and I guess that's basically it.

:bulletyellow:Here are 11 questions that I came up with:
(People that I tag have to answer these questions. Have fun. :D)

1. Which is better, chocolate or ice cream?

2. If your BFF and your bf/gf both fell into a lake and they don't know how to swim while you do, who would you save first? Why?

3. What are some things that you find annoying?

4. Would you rather be blind or deaf? Explain.

5. How do you feel about polygamy?

6. What is your ultimate dream?

7. To you, what's the purpose of this life?

8. Do you have places that you want to visit? If so, where?

9. If you could be anything, what would you be? (Ex: Mythical creatures like fairies)

10. If you could make any law that everyone in this world have to abide to, what would it be?

11. Do you like me? Why? :XD:

I tag:

:iconladydata:
:iconslo-momo:
:iconhinatink:
:iconkilroyart:
:iconsandmanfallingout:
:icondarkphantom-art:
:iconsiegeonthorstadt:
:iconasymmetrical-wings:

I couldn't find two more people to tag. :(
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What ever happened to making art and making friends? Now it's full of judgmental people and trolls. Also, it's a roleplaying site now. Smh. It's not about art anymore. -_-
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I want to continue making art but lately I feel like there's no point to it. I put time and effort into them but only a few care enough to give them a glance. And then I see many artworks that was thrown together in literally 30 something seconds having over 100 favorites which is something I probably won't be able to achieve in my lifetime.

I'm a full-time student, a part-time nanny, a part-time housekeeper but the hardest job is keeping myself alive. I'm really exhausted at this point. The injustice that I have to deal with on a daily basis is just waiting to rip me apart.

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